Saturday, April 30, 2011


I got my hair done this morning. It is a nice chocolaty brown but I already miss having funky colors. I've scheduled an appointment to get some interesting highlights for my next haircut but in the meantime I might buy some purple extensions to pin in when I go out.

pre-salon, faded funky color highlights. RIP

This video is weird and this song is pretty strange but it is my anthem for the rest of the afternoon:

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

This is going to be much harder than I thought.

Wish I Knew

Tonight, I feel as though I am not cut out for my own life. Who the heck is this girl?

Saturday, April 23, 2011

The worst part...

is always the wait.

I don't know what has motivated this but I am suddenly very okay with web cam photos of myself. Here is one of me being antsy.

Don't Go Chasing Waterfalls

I miss Lisa Left-Eye Lopes.

if you chase waterfalls, you get aids.

Today ended up being awesome despite my earlier lethargy. Woke up in a funk but  managed to motivate myself to do some chores. Then Michael and I met up for a lovely day of shopping. We started the day picking out frames etc for some of his prints and got them all set up to be done in 2 weeks. Then we went to In-N-Out (inspired by Sean's check in on foursquare to another location across town). Next we went to a couple malls looking to replace Michael's sunglasses that have disappeared. I got a new bra and panty set while we were out. The sales people always think that Michael is my boyfriend when we are out. I always want to correct them and say, "actually he is my gay boyfriend, it's slightly different," but I never do. After mall-ing, we went to BevMo! to get Jack Daniel's Honey and various other treats. I got another interesting sour beer by New Belgium brewery and tequila (tomorrow is Easter, after all). Finally, we hit up Ralph's so I could get the fixings for Easter with Mashley. Since I have rarely ever done the typical Easter dinner since my "adoptive" family is Mexican, I decided to let my friends in SD in on that treat by attempting carne asada and whatnot. Hope it turns out okay.

Hipster Easter Flowers
And today only promises to get better as Matt and Ashley are coming back from vacation. I am sure they would have rather stayed on vacation on a tropical island forever, but I am excited to have them back in town. I pick them up at the airport a few minutes before midnight. Then we will go paint the town red... just kidding, they'll be tired from traveling and need to rest up for the awesomeness I have planned for Easter Sunday.

This is Me

So much to do this morning, but I can't get into it.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Behind Blue Eyes

You know that moment when you are tipsy/drunk (but not too far gone) and what your eyes are saying is the truest thing about you? That is my favorite.

Never change.

For Your Consideration: Me

I had a job interview today. It went quite well (though I always think that). I was told that I am well spoken and interview well which is encouraging. My biggest worry with the position I interviewed for is that it would be in a slightly different field than what most of my experience is in. It is super exciting to think that I would get a ton of on the job training in a whole new arena and be able to expand my knowledge etc etc, but would this paint me into a corner that I have no idea if I want to be in... bleh. I am probably over thinking this and just need to air it out over lunch/dinner with some of my professional colleagues so I can wrap my head around all the factors. There are a bunch of environmental ones too - like location of the job, timeline for hire, my living situation, if I will implode, does the world really end in 2012, would moving away for a couple months until the "right" thing shows up in SD/LA destroy my will to live as I can't go a couple days without getting in a fight with my dad, what about those billboards for judgement day on May 21st etc etc...

I think the jumbled nature of that paragraph just goes to show that I need to take a step back, breathe, write down the pluses and minuses and what considerations need to be planned for etc before I can really say one way or the other.

Below is a picture of me, post interview haze style. I had my eyebrows waxed yesterday. I think they turned out nice.

me today

In case you were wondering...

like a BOSS

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Job Searching

This is how looking for a job makes me feel:

“Sometimes when I’m brushing my teeth, I’ll look at the mirror and I swear my reflection seems kind of disappointed. I realized a couple of years ago that not only am I not super-skilled at anything, I’m not even particularly good at being myself.”
— Charles Yu, How to Live Safely in a Science Fictional Universe

Monday, April 18, 2011

Lights and Sounds: San Diego

I found this list of the top things to do in San Diego and since I am soon leaving this place for the foreseeable future, I thought I'd take tally of if I did the top things while being a resident.

1. Go to Sea World
Check. Mom bought me a fun card - best thing ever. Went all the time. I love this place.

2. Take Kids to Legoland
Nope. Makes me think of this part of Knocked Up. Also, don't have kids to take there (thank goodness).

3. Go to the Beach
Check. Yeah, sunburns.

4. Visit the San Diego Zoo Safari Park
Nope. Too many dollars.

5. Visit the San Diego Zoo
Nope. Sorry, pandas. Though I did go on the sky lift thinger during some Holiday event at Balboa Park (read as: doesn't count).

6. Take a Harbor Cruise
Check. Worried about getting seasick the whole time.

7. Check out Coronado Island
Check. Went a few times. Brunch with parents was the best trip.

8. Check out Balboa Park
Check. Went several times, but the memory that sticks out is going on a short nature trail with Matt and Michael during a meal break during a Drupal conference we were attending.

9. Tour the USS Midway Aircraft Carrier
Check. It was really cool. Bought a key chain that now is on my car keys. I will probably start to get sad when I look at it when I am gone from this city.

10. Chill out in La Jolla
Nope. It isn't far, but I just have never gone up there for anything.

Sometimes, the universe conspires to take whatever little motivation you had to pack your things into boxes and crush it bit by bit until you are sitting alone in your apartment crying on the kitchen floor.

I want to complain more but I know it could always be worse.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

San Diego and All Things

I am going to spend this entire month worrying that you will forget me.


Friday, April 15, 2011

What Biological Clock?

Sometimes, when I see pictures of newborns I want to say "congrats, your kid's head is shaped like a birth canal. It'll work out, though."

baby erin

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Mixed Bag

I apologize in advance for how lame, depressing and emo this post is about to be.

Sometimes leaving San Diego seems like a really great idea. Maybe I'd be going out on Thursday nights instead of wearing an oversized sweatshirt and self-loathing. Though, I doubt anything would be different if the scenery changed. I was going to post a picture of me looking sad via webcam but then I looked ass-y. So instead here is my red cup with white zinfandel in it.

Cup: Classy, Contents: Classier

Need to cheer up and be positive. Too hard tonight. Tomorrow though. I got this.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Friday, April 8, 2011

The Best of Friends

Matt's foot, Ashley's nail polish, my sandal. This is the exact moment I realized I am going to miss the holy hell out of San Diego. I love you guys. 


Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Diet Coke Dependence

I drink a lot of diet coke and have been playing with on my iPhone.
diet coke tower

future self

Monday, April 4, 2011

Inspiration: Miracle

I needed some inspiration so I watched the movie Miracle. Nothing like making yourself feel better with Diet Coke, a couple chocolate truffles and watching America beat communists.

This movie isn't about just the USA v. USSR game in 1980 Olympics. The real story is about not letting the myth or idea of something get in the way of working hard and believing in yourself/your team. It is about preparation and seizing your moment etc etc.

This message is certainly hitting home as I search for a new job. I have been in this position before and it is very easy to become discouraged. This go round I haven't been looking that long but each day that I don't get a measurable result my confidence really takes a hit. I need to keep reminding myself that I am a good candidate and the right fit will come. This job search is particularly complicated/depressing because I am literally 20-something days away from not having a place to live (not true - I'll move in with parents, but still). I am trying not to get bogged down with this looming threat of putting my life on hold and packing up all that I've put together over the last 6 years into storage, but damn is it ever hard.

Do you believe in miracles? YES! (via)

I just have to keep focusing on what I can control and be prepared through hard work for all the possibilities. The boxes have to be packed no matter what because the lease ends, I always knew that.  And life will go on regardless, even if I will be 24/25 living with my parents. Whatever will be, will be.