Woe

I am still the optimist though it is hard.

Endure Suffering As Stoically As Possible

Increasingly I feel as though my expectations of people, situations etc are constantly not being met. As this was becoming apparent I, a first, strongly believed that it was people sucking but now I think I am probably the cause. I am spending too much time in my head thinking about what I'd like things to be like and getting disappointed that it isn't like the picture in my mind. I end up not savoring the different than expected joys.

I need to ask more questions and not be afraid of the answers. Also, more "shhh, just let it happen."