Little Boxes Made of Ticky Tacky

So, as some of you may know I landed a new job and start tomorrow at 9am (I'll post about it later no promises). And since I am staying in San Diego for the foreseeable future I had to find a new place to live, which means MOVING. I found a lovely 1 bedroom apartment in Ocean Beach (which was a couple minute drive before). AND as many of you know packing/moving is not high up on my list of favorite things to do soo.... yay: new place in a great area, bleh: everything related to getting there.

my life in boxes

I have so much crap and I have moved every year since 2004. I always say to myself that I am going to purge as I pack or unpack but it never seems to happen. This go round I was able to make some progress on getting rid of things, but I am getting down to the wire and I am sort of in the mode of just throw it in a box/bag/car/anything and get it to the new place. I am hoping to actually sort out a lot of it once I am there but I fear it will turn into the same thoughts of, "this place looks messy, let me shove things into every crevice and hide it all so that I don't look like a slob."

I have packed up most of my things and they are all labeled and sorted. These are the visible and highly used items like dishes, small electrics, desk accessories, books, entertainment, decorative items etc. However, I am now getting to the back of the closet, under the bed type items which leave me wondering one, if not all, of the following things:

1. I own this?
2. Why didn't I shred and throw away all of these snail mail credit card offers?
3. Ohhh, there you are! 
4. Gross.
5. Erin, why on god's green earth...? just why? 

I have the rest of tonight (but I already started drinking a nightcap sooo...), tomorrow night and Friday night to get everything ready to go. Then I move on Sunday (Saturday is a fun detour of brewery tours for Michael's birthday/THE RAPTURE). 

Though my postings are always sparse at best, I may be off the interwebs for a bit with settling in to the new job, moving etc. But I'll be back soon with exciting posts on topics like (again no promises): 

• Things my roommate left behind
• Sad Keanu visits my old apartment complex
• One word: newjob
• Livin' right near da beach boy-eeee!
• Viva Las Vegas

I should really just sleep instead...

Sometimes it breaks my heart that I can count on one hand the number of times my friends from Los Angeles have come down to San Diego to see me.

I feel like I am fading away.

you know what, fuck it.

What is Next?

Some things about my new job:

I sit in a lawn chair and work at a really fancy computer. This makes me lol. 

The hours are strange - 1-8pm: mostly because those are more active hours for people to be online and searching for things to do in the space and still within semi-normal hours for work. 

These hours sort of throw me off... I am more productive in the evenings but at the same time I want to be off work when the rest of everyone is. This is why I am considering not keeping on with this kind of work in the future. 

I am also more motivated to go to the gym after work, but the lyon center hours during the summer preclude that. I guess I will just get fat. But at the same time I end up not eating much more than a snack before I leave (and no breakfast [who eats breakfast anymore?]) and then a soda and snack at work and then a dessert-esque snack after I get home. This is so unhealthy - maybe it will make me thin... lol. 

Real work will start happening next week. I have an orientation session on Monday about the more specific things that I am going to be doing on a day to day basis to get traffic to the site. Hopefully I can achieve the goals they want. 

I don't know if I want to do this with my life in the future. When I am here I think it is okay, when I leave I don't really want to... everything is hard.

I want to do nothing and just go on road trips and blog about them. 

Erin, Version Right Now

Of late I have been thinking that I want to be a new me. I have been thinking a lot, especially since things have not been going my way that I need to be more active and do the things I want to do before I can't for whatever reason.

I have a short list of goals which I have put on the side of this blog titled "Things To Do Before Whenever." Some more epic than others. I will keep you posted on how it goes.




On a completely unrelated note, I hung out with Jordan last night and I was thinking about how much I genuinely love his company. It is moments like those where my mind wanders into thoughts about if we would have worked out in a different context or now since our lives are different etc etc... And it all seems sort of lovely to think that I'd be happy with him in that way, but really I am not sure that we'd be any less destructive to each other if thing happened at a different time or now that we are supposedly more mature. I guess I will always be a little bit sad that he and I didn't work out the way I wanted and that we can't really ever work that way. I should learn not to dwell and love myself more instead of trying to figure out what is wrong with me to make Jordan not want to love me or whatever. I guess in the end this is related to my goals of above... stop hating self for not being what Jordan likes in a girl.

If it wasn't this... is would be something else.

Non-Emo V.1.0

Heather recently moved away from the emotastic land of xanga to blogger. I want to do the same but I dislike that I cannot take all of my entries from xanga with me. I have been a somewhat dedicated member of the xanga community since junior year in high school, but I guess with new phases in my life come new ways to share them with everyone. I think I will end up a dual blogger.

I am a grad student now. Click for the program website. I am very excited about the whole thing but also scared. All to be expected I suppose.

Macy*s is ruining my life. I tried to pay my bill in store a while back and the internet bill pay shows I have a negative balance but I still have a collection notice from them saying I owe what I paid in store. It apparently has something to do with the credit card being both a Macy*s charge card and a visa charge card and all this hoopla about two different accounts. In the end I am going to pay them double what I should and have a negative balance on one of the accounts which I don't want. I feel like they are holding my money hostage.